I put the poll up because I'm torn

we need me to work to pay off the adoption, the house, afford retirement, and be able to help put the kids through college. But my desire is to not work. My dh desire is for me to work now. Sigh how do you reconcile that? I worked in 07/08 for around 5 mos and I did enjoy it. I'm just not sure I'm ready to go back to the grind.  I teach preschool two days a week and to me that's alot right now. lol I mean I know I can do it but how do you reconcile that with the fact that your not sure you want too? I know people think what do you do all day but I'm busy!! I feel sometimes I contribute so much just not too much monetarily.  Today was crazy and it's not over yet. I'm ready for bed so I'm anxiously awaiting your replies/comments! Let me have it!