Monday, June 13, 2011

I had an epiphany this week.

I am addicted to wanting people to like me or approve of what I'm doing. It explains so much about why I have a harder time than most of getting over an argument, tiff or squabble. These things bother me. Deeply. Even if it is someone I don't know. For instance, in our car at a stop sign we were able to pull partway out into the street (as we were there first and there was no one in line behind the car we pulled out to wait behind) to wait in line for the light to turn and us to go. Well, this lady in her big SUV tries to pull past us like we're not there. My dh was not going to let that happen so he made her stop so we could continue. I mean, really, we were there first but she apparently in her infinite wisdom had somewhere much more important to be. As we pulled up to the light I rolled my window down to just get a look at this crazy person. She starts yelling at us that she should have ran over our little car. She didn't quite say it so nicely. Insert lots of curse words. Anyway, I have no idea who she is and will never see her again. But it bothered me so much more than it did my dh. I dwell/worry on things way too much. I should not care what she thought. She was the one in the wrong. I never spoke to her and kept my cool just giving her the whatever dear look. Who would have thought one could be addicted to approval? It explains me to myself so much better! lol Are you addicted to approval or something else?